White Flag.

I can’t find the words to describe what I wanted
and now that I have it I’m feeling quite taunted
Its too little to late to start apologies
I don’t expect you to accept just here me out please
I have no anger left and sense of disappointment
I understand I did this but now it feels so pointless
the words that were said were not supposed to be
they rolled right off our tongues how could you be so cruel to me
when all I ever wanted was to tell you how I felt
I went about it wrong but I only blame myself
and maybe I was right and maybe we did change
and maybe we couldn’t no lie no more we just weren’t the same
but I’m not here to fight and I never wanted to
I’m just here to talk and get the message through
am I weak because I wanted just for you to know
that I don’t feel we are close anymore so why put on a show
I can barely get the words out I’m started to get knots
but since this whole thing started I’ve been depressed a lot
you took it one step too far and now we can’t look back
why don’t you feel one ounce of pain is this the drama u lack?
and is it weak for me to say this that the pain I walk with I keep
and is it dumb for me to admit that I cry myself to sleep
I know that I was wrong and I should of done this better
but that’s just me I’m just screwed up at least it wasn’t a letter
I look back at the pictures the hundreds that we’ve taken
but notice they weren’t recent, this whole things been mistaken
and I know you want to show the world your strong enough to fight
but please put down the gun and see I just don’t have all night
because once upon a time I took you as a sister
and now things have just changed and its all become so bitter
it wasn’t meant to get this far I didn’t want this disconcerting you
I just didn’t know how to tell you the truth without hurting you
I’m sorry for the way I act and the things I’ve once done
but this should of ended differently so now you think you’ve won
this isn’t a battle I’m not that kind of person
you know me better than anyone that’s why you keep hurting
this isn’t a sign of weakness I just can’t take the drama
if it doesn’t end now it’ll b a chain of karma
its just the little things you do kind of make me twitch
but I should of told you first stead of being a bitch
this never was a battle it wasn’t meant to be
and if you took it that way I swear I’m so sorry
so tell the world you’ve won
tell them all I was so weak
but it wasn’t a fight if you were the only one fighting
the public craves this drama they find it so exciting
when two best friends fall down all they see is drama
so why feed their hunger while we deal with this trauma
I don’t expect you to forgive me just see what ive been feeling
I know I was wrong, as were you, but how have you been dealing?
lets put this all behind us now I’ve got no strength to fight
the flag I hold beside me has turned from red to white.