Why Can’t You Be Normal?

It breaks my heart a little more everyday
That we can’t just be in the sisterly way
That it’s a constant battle for perfection
And no form of sibling protection
Its like where ever I go I’m constantly challenged
I hate this fight and the constant doubting
That I have the right to be 21
And you have mentality to be 16
This isn’t a contest it’s just living
I could care that your older and your allowed to be drinking
You don’t understand that you break my heart
Why can’t you be normal and for once be smart
I have to spell words out like “remember”
And how hard is It to remember my birthdays in September
Yes I am young and yes you are older
you shouldn’t be dulling me you should be my shoulder
You should be my best friend why can’t you just be
Instead you’re just pretend, and try to control me
Your not a big sister, your minds still too young
And the pain that you’ve caused me is rolling right off my tongue
Stop envying me because there’s nothing to envy
You create this yourself that’s why you’re so heavy
I beginning to hate you and just want to deflate you
Poke a pin your tummy and see what would happen
This really isn’t funny I don’t see anyone laughing
Why can’t you just hold me and show me some love
Fix all my problems and then give me a huge
I guess I can’t change you, you’re already done
And I will be too with you, when I turn 21.
And I’m punished for YOUR actions cause they’re scared I’ll be like you
I can’t get the satisfaction and I cant do what I want to do
I gotta be a stepford kid cause they wont let me sink low
And god forbif I fail one class, I’m cursed from head to tow
I sit here and listen to your stupid sob stories
About a man 4 times your age, whose just really horny
He’s not looking for love, he just wants to use you
But you’ll never get tough, you’ll just let them abuse you
And I’m sorry this happens I wish I could stop it
But I’ve tried so many times now I just learned to drop it
You ask me for advice like I’m the older sister
Where were you for me when I was feeling bitter
So that’s it I’m done, my hearts too broken
Good luck with your life because the towels been thrown in