find my cure

another one added to the list of those who hurt me
cross him off the list of those who dont deserve me
u say u didnt mean for it 2 go that far
so why did you let it, not im falling apart
i hide from those who try 2 help
run from those who dont know how it felt
fake a smile to get me through the day
and try to listen to every word that he’ll say
theres so many guys and so many emotions
confused and broken
they left me hear choking
one more added to the list of those who made me cry
screaming my lungs out thinking i did wrong asking “why?”
why out of all of them there couldn’t be at least one
one who helped me up and helped me forget all i’ve done
but i believe people come into your life to teach you a lesson
and it still hasnt been taught to me and now im feeling all this agression
and its all hitting me at once and i dont know how much i can take
i just want to wish yous all away and forget all my mistakes
the numbers keep building up where will they go next
to answer all my problems i need to give my heart a rest
but he doesnt understand that hes all i think about
and i definitly shouldnt be feeling this way but hes my last doubt
“breathe in the strength and focus on your chest”
cant seem to find my cure but im doing my best
trying to find the words but i feel so unsure
i just wish i could find a guy that for once also wants more
that is tired of these stupid games and wants 2 be in love
because i hate this high school drama i’ve really had enough
so i stand back up a little at a time from having another hard fall
i stare them in the face, there such a disgrace, and i turn my back on them all

you catch me when i’m falling

& it doesn’t matter, ’cause it can never be as I come to realize.
Sit alone talking to you with this disguise.
Pretend I’m happy while you make me smile,
I wish you could just come here and stay with me a while.
If you only knew the happiness you bring me,
And I dont get why you have doubts that “we” could be.
In a different world, we’d be perfect and worth it.
But a different world is alot to ask for, but we deserve it.
But you catch me when i’m falling and thats all i ever wanted,
Someone to care that, by my past, im haunted.
I wanna be there for you, the one you give your heart to
You pick me back up and make everything alright,
And I’m trying not to fall again but i’m blinded by the sight.
Just take me by the hand and try not to care.
The world is so judgemental, so what if that stare.
So what if they point and say this isnt right.
At least were not the ones sleeping alone tonight.
From the minute I wake to the minute I sleep,
Your all I think about, your in my dreams.
But my thoughts slow down as I step into reality,
Open up my eyes and see its just a fantasy.
The vision of “us” gets crushed.
‘Cause I know one day it would end
So here i am alone again
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