break down

Anger built up let out in one punch
She punches till her knuckles bleed nd she cant feel her fingers touch
Her nails scraped open her skin but she enjoys the sting
This pain is just to much she cant even sing
Blasts the music so no one can hear her scream
Inside the room shes making a big scene
Its all hitting her at once as she screams out “WHY!?”
She can’t understand what she ever did wrong as she begins 2 cry.
Tears pouring out down like rain in April
She didn’t know this much pain was capable
Bang as she punches away the pain he left inside
Bang as she punches away all his lies
Bang as she punches to not being perfect
Bang as she punches to not being worth it
Punches the away the respect people lack
This innocent heart feels so attacked
Shes only human and makes mistakes as well
But they rub in her mistakes as she trys to erase them but they dwell
Breaking down on the floor heart racing sweaty and red in the face
She looks in the mirror and sees disgrace
No body understands what she goes through each night
And laltly all she seems to be doing is picking fights
Shes just tired of having to hide what shes feeling
And watch her as her confidence hits the ceiling
Why Does everyone hurtt her? She Cnt figure it out
Why no one wants 2 know what shes all about
Rumors and lies is all shes based upon
Trying to ignore it all and stay stronge.
“I hate everything about you” is one of his requests
Who knew it would fit her at this time the best
A lover not a fighter, trained to fight for love
The song ends and shes felt she had enough
“Stay calm & breathe” repeated in her head
With tears in her eyes, the tantrum ends as she hits the bed.

Superman aint saving shit

So here it is, my grand finaly
More pain, down the drain, and one more tally
I’m breaking free, I’m letting go
You probably don’t care but I thought you should know
People are right, I base my world around you
But things need to changed I need someone new
Its the way its always going to be, Its like a game of next
I thought you’d be different but, hes right, your like all the rest
I gave you more than enough time to show me your best
And you acted you like me
UNTIL too
Than you just leave me
Like all the other boys do
This is one good I can feel it
Aren’t you happy your the one who made me reveal it
Searching this world in all the wrong places
Falling in love with all the wrong faces
There all just painted faces lieing this whole illusion
Finding out who is real gettin a real conclusion
They don’t give me the time of day to show them who I really am
They’re all just silly boys pretending to be men
I wanna break down and show you how I feel
I don’t think it matters because I don’t think its real
I gotta refrain myself
And train myself
To contain myself
And not strain myself
From all the stress
This is such a mess
This isnt how it was supposed to be
You were supposed to be with me
And everytime i talk to you I can hardly get the words out
And everytime you look at me I know that theres not any doubt
You care for her and she cares for you
So Go ahead do what you gotta do
There all right and im wrong
I always am but i hide it in song
Singing away my fears hiding from the pain
I really cant believe that you were just the same
I reached out to you in a cry of desperatiion
Following every word on our conversation
Tryin to reach the conclusion and destination
That this was real not an illusion
But it was in deed a cry for help
And obviously its not how you felt
I was just another girl you unintentionally used and hurt
But its ok because your just another guy who made me forget what im worth
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too young 2 be this empty grl

the more i try 2 show you
the more you try 2 hide
i just wanna kno you
and see the guy inside
i wnt you 2 let me in let me wash away ur pain
i wnna give u my heart nd have you do the same
ur constent absense has caused me 2 confess
i need 2 give it a rest, and release all this stress
i wnna kno whut u feel
i wnna kno if this is real
im tired of dropping hints
tired of tryna find the evidence
any piece that shows me you care
nd wen we laid 2 gether wuz it rele u that was there
wuz it just someone u wntd 2 be
bc thats all u gotta be w. me
im hurting inside and everyone sees it
im trying not 2 lie nd kno one believes it
im too young 2 be this empty grl
i wasnt prepared for this sick dark world
im tryna get thru 2 you but idk how 2
im tryna show you but theres a door u keep pushin me out thru
if you dont feel the same id rather you say it
thn have me wonder if we cudda actually made it
if it was all my fault if i shud spoke up
i was so happy 2 see you the minute i woke up
im not saying your forced 2 love me just tell me if its possible
i dnt care if u dnt feel the same i just wnt you 2 be rassional
how do you explain the unexplainable
how do i put the pain i went thru in the world’s vision
its like they all wana hurt me, like there on a mission
if i shed a tear nd obsess all dai then theyve completed there task
how is it im always thinking this ones better then the last
there all the same.. same game.. i thought you were different in a way
but shiit i have keep reminding myself thats whut i always say
i try so hard 2 learn from my mistakes but i keep repeatin them
i cnt take no0 more pain nd im tired of showin them
im tired of being treated this way but i guess its my own fault
im tryna leave these feelings behind put everything 2 a halt
but every time we speak i studder and stumble
i keep on smiling as my insides start to crumble
im tired of waiting for something 2 happen
hoping and praying hiding my pain by laughing
i wanan give up but its so0 hard 2 do
bc all i ever wanted was 2 be with you
im so0 sick of it i just dont give a fuck
im thinking of finally giving up
all i want to know is if you want me or you dont
wut ever ur answer may be, its gunna fase me
but if u think it will hurt me.. it wont.
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