It makes me cry to see how far we’ve grown
We were tighter then tight and it was well known
and the summers spent together will never fade away
as my heart burns in pain for just one more day
tears pour down my face as I write these sad words down
but I gotta get em out, before I start to drown
Remember singing everything as if we knew the words
we pissed my family off that summer, we sang like little birds
Remember when I cried to you because I had to let him go
You stood by me as I tore his picture in pain, and tried not to let it show
Remember Seaside and the log flume, when we almost died
Remember what I screamed then we laughed until we cried
Remember our videos we danced like ass holes
and all our secrets no one but us knows
Why’d you leave me now every things changed
Should of came with me, now nothings the same
So many pictures, so many memories
You were a really good friend true to everything you said to me
less then cousins, more like sisters
But every things different and I’m sitting here bitter
I hope one day life snaps back and were sitting under the clouds
the way we used to “tan” after coming out of the poor for hours
Stupid fights we had, though, there weren’t that many
always taking stupid pictures and making them funny
Will You Remember Me?
&& one day when we grow older and lives are taking different paths
ill remember the old days, my stupid jokes and the way you’d laugh|
Remember Me.
A second to beathe
Its written inside her, the pain that was caused
Broke her down, lied to her; the lies that were lost.
She cries in her hands as the pain starts to ride her.
No one to help her stand except K-9s beside her.
& its hurts so fucking bad to see him lie about it.
Cause he knows deep down inside shes gunna cry about it.
When he was the one to say he’d never leave her.
Now shes the one saying she dont believe her.
Believe what you want I can’t control it.
But he’ll hurt you and we both know it.
Let it all out in one loud scream.
Crys on her knees as her nose starts to bleed.
A second to breathe as the boy she loved is all she sees.
He fights for her and tries to compel.
and she dont even realize how hard she fell.
I’ll take every fucking word you said
and turn them into blood you shed
When I burn you down to the ground
and I walk away without a sound and I turn around
look you in the eye one last time
an hold the hand that I call mine.
I’ll kiss this boy as we try to define me
he cures the scars you left inside me
Used up to my very last strength
and I’ll soar through the sky cause I’m high from this pain
Poke me again bitch, see if I’ll break
You should give up on life, for your own sake
its all I can take, as I find my true love
recover from the pain you put me through as i admit “Enough”
and I wear my heart on my bloody sleeve
Tears dried and I finish my bleed
Look up into the eyes that actually care
He stapples my heart and heals my tare
sees me for me, treats so much better
We stand hand in hand and we promise forever
So Fuck You superman you got some nerve
I’ll burn you down its what you both deserve
Twelve and Twelve
[christopher]
I’m laying by your side and I couldn’t be much better
Everything has come together and I hope it lasts forever
Cause every tie’s been severed to the past that I once held
You picked me up a thousand times every time I fell
And everything’s gone well and everything’s so perfect
The struggle that we went through, I think that it was worth it
Cause everything has purpose and both of us are fighters
And love is the igniter of these hearts that fill with fire
And when everything gets dire and the world is falling inward
The sum of my soul’s purpose can be always found in this word
The letters fixed this hurt and have helped me rise above
A word and feeling in me, you’re my everything, my love
[melanie]
We can make the world jealous with the love that we posses
We may not be that perfect but this month has been the best
And I cant wait to grow older and be your wife
Have your kids and have you in the rest of my life
You’ve made me so happy, over the moon kinda love
And I’ll never get bored and you’ll always be enough
Cause your voice became my daily routine
I finally found the man of my dreams
And when you whisper that you love me, I wish I had your last name
I’ve waited so long to hear that, I’m so happy that you came
We are so in love, your my man and I’m your girl
I’ll wait forever to be your wife, but for now we’ll fight the world.
Notes: This is a poem I wrote with my baby, I absoulutly love him and this poem can’t even express the love I have.
I’m Gunna Crash
So now the angers built up inside me
are you happy? I cant believe you even tried me
get the dick out ya mouth and fight me
now you saying you own dis school
bitch u fucked one dude, Yeaaa your cool
u writtin checks ur ass cant cash
now im flowin down a one way street, im guna crash
ignored ya dumb ass till i jsut cant take it
told you i aint just talking shit, now i aint tryna fake it
because look deep inside you, what kinda shit u pullin
who u tryna impress startin a scene like that who u foolin
now a ball of fires burning in a heart thats undesired
& shes on the floor now crying, wanting the one man shes inspired
as he sits there punching away every tear she drops down
and they both hit the ground, feet first not a sound
and shes crying inside just a little
as hes dieing inside just a little
Her lifes not full till he calls her back
he puts her at ease cause shes the sally to his jack
Now this whores callin ma phone cause she cant get enough
little freshman girl tryan think shes tough
give up little girl youll never make on top
theres only one top you like to be on, you dirty fuckin slut
but i wont waste no more time, wont waste one more tear
erase this fear, you aint gunna put me down this year
I Do
Growing up, I fantasized
About the man, now in my eyes
He’d sweep me off my feet,
And together we’d live the rest of our lives
And I made a few wrong mistakes before I made the right one
Open up and letting you in when no one else would come
You’ve helped me become a better me
I’m happy, and the entire world can see
And when you call me your beautiful girl
I know there’s no one else I want out there in the world
Cause you’ve swept me off my feet and proved your love
Two lonely hearts together, and that’s enough
That’s all I need to know, is you’re willing for wait or fight
Hand and hand we stand together, walking towards the light
Standing in the spot light so everybody knows this is right
That you won’t give up, and neither will I
And we no longer have reasons to cry
9 reasons to give up but two to stay real strong
Two souls connect, an eclipse aligns, and its time for us to move on
Fight the world together because we know our love is true
And never ever give up, until we say our “I do’s”
Because I Do want to be your wife, I want to make you happy
I Do want to spend my life with you, no matter what hard balls are thrown at me
& I Do think our love is strong I know we can make it through
I Do want to make this work because I am in so in love with you
You’ll never be hungry again, you’ll never be alone
All you got to do is pick up the phone
Well make it through with our happy life
6 more years and ill be your wife
11 8
[53]
These words are exquisite there coming from the heart
They may not be the best but its my style and my art
My hearts breaking through my chest, it wants to have a voice
Its screaming words of love and happiness now i dont really gotta choice
You came into my life so fast, i pushed you and disgarded you
But here i am pulling you back, putting together every part of you
I knew you were something special the minute we started talking
I knew that you wanted me the minute you heard my problems and started walking
That one line you wrote with passion “Oddly enough i care for you”
It stuck in my head till this day, and now ill do what i gotta do
How will i explain this to the people who care for me the most
How will i let them know, that your the one i chose
& People may stop and stare and say this really aint right
But im willing so stand by you and put up with this fight
You showed me you were different, as you walked into my life
Laying there with you, i felt so alive
I told you my mistakes, and i layed in ur arms and cried
You turned to me and kissed me and muttered that you loved me
Then i knew right then and there, you’d put no one else above me
I wish this shit was easy, i wish we werent so far
In age in distance in everything but nothing will tear us apart
Nd When he makes that face, he knows which face it is
I know that hes the one in my heart, hes the one i miss
Nd babe did you ever notice when you think of me im thinking of you too
and sometimes you do the same things i do
When you kiss me your eyes are shut to tight
and i just wanna lay with you like we did that night
i wish i could see you everyday
Because i’d kiss that “Broken smile” away
& I’d look in those lonly eyes of sadness
We’ve waited so long to finally have this
& when I hold Your hand it fits perfectly in mine
you call me Your “beautiful girl” and i absoultly love that line
Your that guy for me I can feel it deep down
& The way you say my name, i jsut love that sound
& when you make that face, my insides melt
This is really something i’ve never felt
We will make this work cause i wanna be your girl
Take my hand and walk with me, ’cause its us against the world
11 8
chapters
Glance at his face from ear to ear
Embrace your pain and realize hes not here
Whos this about what am i writting to?
“Every single one of them. Cause they’ve all hurt you.”
Forget there faces and forget there names
Smash the review mirror and forget that pain.
These words im trying to say are gettin all mixed up and jumbled
When I told him how i felt, he just waved his hand and mumbled
I cant stand this feeling, ive been going through for days
I just hope its part of growing up, and another fase
Cause ive seen shit, and ive been through alot
Drinking, drugs, sex, and smoking pot
People fighting, people dieing, and seeing how long a love can last
But in the end weve all been through it just put it in your past
Fight the pain, youll be ok, we all do it everyday.
i cant see the point im gettin at, ive just have enough
Enough crying, enough lieing
Enough dieing, enough trying.
Paint myself on a wall cause thats what they all do
Trying to fit in, cause thats all im used to
Change the trend each day, according to my mood
Thought these years would be different, but its nothing new.
So write my name and say you love me, use up the whole page
Try to figure this whole thing out but dont forget to mention my age;
Ignore my signals and fuck with my head
I seemed to have alot of your attention when we were in bed;
Smile and be happy, & pretend like you used to
But in the end your a piece of shit, and i know the real you;
You told me you didnt want me right from the start
But why’d you have to go and break my fucking heart?;
All these guys are chapters, tho theres so much more than this
There just words on a piece of paper, that each day i kinda miss
Ill glance at my fone
but in the end i go 2 sleep alone
The ones i open my heart to and the ones i open my soul
I Tried to show them how it could be, but there hearts are just too cold
Never got a chance with them, to be who i want to be
and the next time someone wants to cry to me
& for the ones who have someone who loves you, dnt reject or hate it
Remeber ones like me, who cant find love, so appreciate it.
and says i dont know how they feel
ill just show them the list of men i’ve loved and how none of them were
Real
not once have i ever had a guy i loved treat me like a queen
buy me shit and love me, and not care if we get seen
never had a guy tell me how much they love me in everyway
teling the world im his girl without it lasting like a day
remembering stupid shit i do and stupid shit i say
making me laugh and smiling at me for no reason
Mayb its me or mayb its just the season
Whyyy cantt i findd love.. why cant you answer me?!?
& mayb i shud grow up and stop living a fantasy
Kiss the burn
She just finished writting the list of guys who broke her heart
Kinda scared to count the names as she slowly falls apart
Finished going over the number of ‘Best Friends’ who came and left
They never really did live up there title of being the “best”
Sorted through some old poems and photos left behind
Found the old cliche words she wrote but thats all she could really find
Theres not much left for her to cry over ’cause the mirrors already broke
So she sits alone staring at the names and this is what she wrote
“Fuck yous all for breaking my heart fuck you for pretending you cared,
I sat here and exploded my heart to you and you fucking just sat there
nd stared
So Get the Fuck out of my life as i forget that you all even existed
Should of never let myself get hurt that much, like they all insisted”
So here i am alone, with no one here to call
Wanna get ma anger out but i just cant bring myself to punch a wall
So many friends on speed dial but none can understand
‘Cause there all out there with happy faces, cause they all got a man
To the ones that dont realize what they got till its really gone
And the ones like me who are stuck in a fantasy and they cant move on
Your all dead to me, you all have a reason to be
The knot in her throat from tryna to stay strong,
makes her throw up the sorrows she Swallowed to move on
And this sadness is a sickness that her body cant face
Its immune to her system and she cant fight this race
Shes been down this road before and she knows how it will end
depressed and more alone minus a few friends
Cause everyone she loves leaves so now she just stops loving
Cause she gives and gives exprecting something back, and she just gets nothing
Realizing this well known pain she falls down to her knees, destroyed
Tears pouring out, her body knows this part well, shes reached her breaking point
Dont try to help her now, distance is what lead her here
Let her run away and deal with every tear
I gotta face the facts I guess this is the night of truth
What do you do when you lost all hope, theres nothing you can really do
The voice inside her head, screaming for her to come back
The other side yelling too, saying let them see what they could of had
Losing her grip with no one here to save her
Dont try to stop her, you all lost your chance to appricate her
You see it in her drawings, see it in her eyes
Read it in her poems, but dont you care when she fuckinghides
Fuck this teenage shit it passes but why the fuck does it gotta hurt
No one here who cares for her showing her what shes worth
No one to go through this with her, cause no one knows how it feels
Shes been through more shit than any one knows shit that was all real
Cry about the same old guy… try crying about 22
Still didnt count that list; i estimated, but i hope its nothing close too
And the only one that cares she can never truly have
Perfect in all those ways but something gunna go bad
He says what shes been wanting to hear and means it, he isnt saying it for fun
But she freaks and shuts down and begins to run
So ill end this shit with her head hung low, tears in her eyes she closes the door
Kisses the burn thats still left behind and falls to the floor
He aint YOUR superman
Look for something so meaningless even though i dont have to
I stubel across some letters that i never gave to you
The words upon these papers written so long ago
Makes me realize how much i should really let you go
Words that i still touch upon that i felt even back then
And i think i finally realize ill never be more than just a friend
Cause the days we spent together were so perfect and so pure
And so long ago, you dont even talk to me any more
I see you walking around and i just stop and stare
Because i want you to run up 2 me and hug me but you dont even care
Letter 1 letter 2 letter 3 and letter 4
I just want to burn them all and not feel this any more
These words are too cliche but this feelings still in my heart
Of the day we first kissed to the day we fell apart
And im not sure what went wrong i thought this was so perfect
Was it something that i did? Cause i thought you’d be worth it
Now i face each day alone, Lieing to myself
Fake a smile so you’ll notice me, but this is realli bad for my health
Lieing to my heart and saying you realli do care
Making up excuses and saying your just scared
Lonly is, the broken heart that crys out for attention
He who hurt this lonly girl, shell never learn her lesson
So Erase all the memories and the cute things he said
Erase his stupid tragities and the time you fell asleep in his bed
Forget the times he held you close like no one else mattered
Lose the way it felt when he kissed your head, those times are all shattered
Wake up each day and erase it all, one day you’ll just forget him
One day hell realize that your gone and i hope that, that will upset him
Cause if hes dumb enough 2 walk away, be smart enough to let him
You gave him more than enough time to show him your feelings are true
Now stand back and let it all go like he did to you
Forget this ever happend, get off the floor sad girl and stand
Cause he aint going to save you He aint YOUR superman
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